Hello, I posted last night, I self harmed today.

No one is being here for me in my life right now I feel so sad that I have to turn to the internet but I don't know what to do I feel like I can't go on. My situation has become worse just someone please please help me because I have never been so close to ending it all. I feel like there is a small desire, just a thought that it might be different, I can't hurt my mom and dad and I can't leave my best friend I don't want to hurt anyone but I just cannot bear this any longer, I hate hate hate myself and everything I am and have been and have done. Please I need someone to talk to.