I had a crazy night.

Incoming wall of text. Sorry.

Some background info:

I spend my weekends with my boyfriend and our really tight-knit group of friends - all guys. With the exception of my boyfriend, they're all horny, single pussy-chasers. We usually do a little toking on the weekends, it's no big deal. But I don't smoke as much as everyone else, like maybe every 2 months or so.

One of those guys, we'll call him Jon, really wants to bone me. He knows that my boyfriend and I have an open relationship. I don't think Jon particularly "likes" me, he's just really lonely and we seem to get along fairly well. I've thought about sleeping with him, but the whole prospect of sleeping with someone new after only being with my boyfriend for two years made me pretty nervous. Cheating on my boyfriend wasn't the issue because of our open relationship, it was just being with someone new.

The other guy we'll call Jack. He's the youngest out of our bunch; he's 16 and the rest of us are between 18 and 20. He's the complete stoner of the group. We all smoke pot, but he dabbles in a little more hardcore stuff like coke and pills. He's pretty nice too, but we've never really spent time talking to each other.

What happened:

So I got really high for the first time last night. I'd never felt like that before. Everything just slowed down and I came down with a major case of couch-lock. But Jon and Jack both stayed relatively sober. They guided us all inside to our friend's basement where we were veg'd out. Jon had been itching to get me alone all night because he wanted a handy. So once he got all the guys in the room and shut the door, he pulled me into one of the side rooms and turned the lights off.

My head was spinning. I really should have been laying down, and I kept telling Jon that. My boyfriend was looking for me, but Jon kept telling me to shush because he didn't want to be caught with me. Basically, Jon just whipped it out and put my hand on it. I wanted to touch him and be with him, but I felt so uncomfortable hiding from everyone else and I was so incredibly stoned that I didn't feel comfortable doing anything sexual. I spent what felt like 30 minutes (it was probably only 10 or so) begging him to go lay down, but he was like "...no, it'll be okay, no one's gonna find us in here." He wouldn't let me stop. I pretty much had to start stumbling away to get him to listen.

Eventually, everyone fell asleep in this room except for Jack and me. We were just having a casual conversation. He was laughing at how stoned I was and we were just sharing music. But somewhere down the line, we ended up sitting perpendicular to each other on the floor and he was using my thighs to warm his toes up.

At first there was nothing sexual about it... at least it didn't feel that way to me. And then he put his hand on my thigh and eventually started moving it higher up my thigh. I kept telling him that we shouldn't, and he would just be like "I'm sorry, your ass just got me really horny" and continued with his hand-adventure then kept "apologizing" until he had his hands in my panties. I guess I actually enjoyed him touching me because my boyfriend hasn't touched me like that in so long. And then Jack and I started kissing. He's the most amazing kisser I've ever known. He had the sweetest, softest lips and I just wanted to stay like that for hours. Ugh, I felt awful for enjoying it, but it was awesome.

And then we did it. We had sex right there on the floor with all the other guys asleep around us. Ugh. Why did I do that? I remember opening my eyes once and thinking to myself "What am I doing?" I felt so out-of-body and it all felt like a dream. He wasn't as well-endowed as Jon and my boyfriend, so it's not like the sex was amazing, but I feel like I enjoyed the intimacy way more than I should have. Then we woke up this morning and he couldn't keep his hands off of me.

Did I enjoy myself? I don't know. I liked the high and at times enjoyed what I was doing with Jon and Jack. I just wish the guys hadn't been so pushy and would've let me relax and enjoy my high.

TL;DR: Got really high for the first time, pushed into giving one guy a handy and then slept with another guy, neither of who was my boyfriend.