It's time to believe in myself again.

Around August or so I started to spiral down into depression. My relationship was on the rocks, and my friends were busy with other things. I threw myself into my school work and while I got all a's, I wasn't really happy. The fact that my brother was a recovering drug addict with an anger issue didn't help thing.December things got really bad and my girlfriend broke up with me and my family seemed to abandon me. I was shattered. So I sprawled even further. Started gaining more weight than I had already gain to begin with, stopped taking care of myself, having really fucked up relationships with girls that usually were only carnal. Though I had been in denial about it up until now I started to really miss my ex. It got to the point that was so bad that I took 20 paxil that I had been prescribed and tried to take my own life. Somehow I survived and finally I decided it was time to pick myself up. It's been a month now since then and since starting to work out for a week and eat better I've already lost 10 pounds. By June I should be back to best self and I'm full of steam right now and I don't see myself stopping any time soon. This summer I'm going to be working with my best friend all summer. I know the most important thing is that for the first time in a while I believe in myself again. I'm happy again too. I think that maybe, just maybe I might even be able to win my ex back.