Turning 30yrs this month and trying to be truly happy at last. Can you help me?

I'm turning 30 in a few month and it made me realize that I've live a third of my life mostly feeling inadequate, "not normal", not good enough, unstable, depressed and lost in my own thought and in my own life. I have to first start by saying that I suffer for bullimia(13years) I have start taking control of that this last year and I'm doing really better now even if I have some episode sometimes mostly due to my mental and emotional state. I'm also bipolar(I found out 2years ago) and I'm on mood stabilizer medication(lamotrogine 400mg/day) and they have really help me being more even even if I have a long way to go, I now can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have GAD(anxiety disorder) that make my life and myself a hot mess, affect all of my relationship and prevent me to deal with life in a "normal" way, I've start taking care of that issue recently(2month, xanax) after realizing how much it was affecting my life. And I have ADHD(I found out this month) and I can now see how much this has and is affecting my life so so greatly, I've started medication(adderal) and it had really really help me with organizing my thought and my life, I feel less like a mess even if I'm still far from "normal" at least now I'm taking step(little) to get my life back in shape. I suffer from depression mostly related to all the other "problems" I just stated. Basicly I'm a MESS, like a real MESS It crazy to be 29, think you an adult and that you should have your shit in order and now coming to the full realization of how much "handicaps" I had and how much harder it is and will be. I just wanna feel "normal" I just wanna be Ok, I just wanna be happy but sometimes I feel like it is out of reach for me...other can but not me because I have so much issues, problem, baggages I'm really pretty and smart and fun(when I feel ok) but I've been single for years(expect random guys that are very superficial and unsubstantial relationships) people can't imagine the struggle of my personal life....Because I feel inadequate and not "normal" I can or don't want to get too close to someone I really like by fear that they will discover my secrets...So most of the time I feel very alone and lonely and even not worthy of someone truly love me... Those are my issues and I wanna make a change, be better and do better on my over all life. Please help me, I need advises, tips...where to start? What to do? How to do it? What to read or watch? Anything to help me feel less lost and unworthy?? How can I feel good enough to be happy and be love? I wanna change my life for the best