i know feeling a lot is exhausting sometimes, but please enjoy it, it's a gift

over the past year several bad things happened in my life that i'm still struggling with right now and my body and mind completely went into dissocation. i feel very absent and not real all the time and most things don't even come through to me because my brain doesn't want me to feel bad feelings. which also means that i perceive and feel things much less intensely in general and now i realize how much of a gift it is to be able to feel and love a lot.

i've always felt everything pretty intensely which is both a blessing and a curse. of course sometimes it feels like it just makes life harder because there's not the time to feel so much in this world, but i love to be able to find beauty everywhere and be full of love and joy and i hope i will be able to do so again soon - please appreciate it and don't take it for granted💜