i said mean sh''t to my parents and i regret it.

my dad was talking to my mom about 'back in the day' and he pretty much said some ridiculess dad jokes stuff... i'm grumpy when i'm home coz i'm boring and my parents are boring and they're goody goody people who didn't even make it in life in any way other than have me and my siblings and provided food for us our whole lives (plus they're the worried type so we never had any traveling with them nor with friends nor they allow anything risky also they're SUPER RELIGIOUS while i'm a closeted atheist) so anyway i heard him say that shit in that sorry as mood of mine and i couldnt keep my mouth shut, while passing i let out a ''i wish you would've di''ed before having us, at least that way we won't be stuck in this shitty life with you'' and i know they're the ones who had me while they had no food to eat at the time let alone a respectful house, they're the one who brought me to this sad existence that i hate sooo much, in which i can't choose my body nor my color nor my country nor my fina'cial status... they're the one who started this fucked up cycle of "eat, sleep, poop" that i'm stuck in and no matter how many times i tried escaping there is no point... but i still feel regret for saying those mean words coz i know somehow, it's the best they could do.