A thing about sobriety from a guy who thought he was Jesus ( no kidding )

Hey.

You know the junky who believes he is Jesus ? Ow I used to be this one ! I thought I was Jesus Christ I went to my mother telling her "Now you have to believe in me ! I am the son of God I am Jesus Christ". Although I think that Jesus would love to talk to prostitutes and junkies I think that he was not the "type of guy" who spent all his hard earned money on drugs and prostitutes. What a bad Jesus I was.

My mother is actually a hero. Every other woman in the world would just dump me in the streets. I've been beaten up by both nazis and anarchists so my chances of surviving out there as a junky who believes he is Jesus Christs and likes to fight.

Mainly a pillhead but tried nearly everything except of coke and meth. What is "everything" ? Well everything is things like Datura ( both burmgasia and stramonium ) , 2cb , lsd , shrooms , once smoke opium , inhlants and smoked many cigarettes per day. I was bad and awful to every single person who treated me well , I didn't want to make anything for me even bath.

Did literally anything made a lot less than I could do even in dead end jobs. Spent my teenage years blaming all other people except of myself. I blamed cops , politicians , fascists , the church , the army , my teachers. All those awful but u know what ? Did any of them force me to believe I am the trippy Jesus who injects Datura ?

Now am like 3 years sober. Not bad not good. In the start I did like once a month , nowadays I'm 100%. The reason I got sober ? A girl who now hates me. Look what kind of bad person I actually am. Yeah I told me I'm a narc cartoon villain in a junkies body. Tell you the truth ? I literally loved this. Popping pills everyday being flow and happy. I LOVE DRUGS i fucking still do I swear. Even inhalants ! I loved them for reason , I mean why not huffing some glue who can harm Jesus ?!?!?!?! I just don't want to die poor in the streets and I want my mother to see that there are some things in her little shit that she can be proud of.

Conclusion : Drugs fun in you a adult and do it like once a year. DON'T BE LIKE ME. You are not Jesus , Buddha or any other divine figure.