Anyone able to be in an sexually intimate safe relationship?

I’ve been in therapy on and off (mostly on) for the last 15 years. I’ve been in csa support groups for the last 3 years.

I’m still very much attracted to unavailable people, most partners end up being like my mother and isolation often feels like the safest option.

Most people I know who are partnered, they got into relationships before memories resurfaced.

Looking for a bit of hope. People that started their recovery journey have you also found partnerships?