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I am a sex addict. And I need help. I cant last a day without masturbating several times which of course has to be stimulated through porn. On my worse days I seek out sexual encounters.

The worst part is if I dont get to do these things I cannot focus or I feel very twitchy. When Im done doing it, I feel even les and I most often cry and spiral from depression anxiety and even suicidal thoughts which explains how i ended up here. Several times I have considered ending everything because of the shame, the lack of control and the feeling of worthlesness.

I have been searching for so long for an avenue, group or forum who could help me understand what im feeling and going through and hopefully help me overcome this. Sharing it is hard enough despite the anonymity because this is not even half of the baggae or issues that I am deaing with which is associated to this addiction.

Please I need help badly. I dont know how much more I cam carry before I fully obliterate myself. I need someone to talk to.