Will I make things worse if I text her again?

Should I text her or wait for a response?

Recently, I reached out to my ex after a year of no contact. We had a meaningful relationship, and I wanted to reconnect. I texted her expressing that I often think about her and asked how she's been. She responded 18 minutes later, which I think she might have responded immediately but the text didn’t send straight through because her phone was off.

She shared that she also thinks about me often and asked about my life. She then suggested we have a phone call the next day at 7pm after she finished work. The following day she called literally immediately after she got off work and during the conversation I could sense her excitement and happiness to be talking with me.

This part I am not so sure about. Before we got off the phone she told me to have a great life and mentioned the profound impact I had on her life, and how she has a connection to me. She said I could text her anytime I wanted, if I wanted. I was kind of hurt by that because it almost sounded like a goodbye?

But I feel like if I would have been more vulnerable with her when she asked not once but twice why I messaged her and to be honest about it. Instead of me saying I’ve been thinking of her and always been wondering how she’s doing. I SHOULD have told her how much I’ve missed her and how’s there’s not been a single day where I have not thought about her. Then maybe things would have been different? I feel she’s caution because I was the one to end things. Nothing bad happened everything was beautiful, just had personal issues at that time.

So this is where I think I may have fucked up! On our phone call I mentioned i would be traveling soon. I traveled to Mexico last year which is actually where I met her. So the topic of traveling had already been discussed.

So I texted her saying… “Hey, quick question. I’ll be traveling soon and I was wondering how you feel I visited you in France.? What do you think?”

I texted that on Monday. I have not got a response. It is now Thursday. And I’ve realized me asking was wayy too much pressure because I had just shown back into her life after leaving. So should I send her this message…

“Forget what I asked. How unmindful of me. I’ve realized it was too much of a question after showing up into your life after a year of complete silence.”

Do I text again, Or just wait to see if she hopefully responds? I don’t want to make things worse so I’m not sure if text or not