6 days after the break up

Does it ever get easier? She had become my habit, I was addicted to her and one day all of it was gone. She told me that she would think about reconsidering things but it doesn’t seem like she would go that way. She still loves me and I still love her, her issue is that she doesn’t trust me anymore.

No I didn’t cheat on her or talk to any girls. She just has some insecurities that are triggered by some things I say. I don’t have any female friends but she still has trust issues where she thinks I might say yes if the right woman ever asked me. Why can’t she see that she’s the right woman.

We only keep in contact to ask for wellbeing because I know she has an eating disorder and I wanna make sure she’s alright. I just don’t know how to cope. Some days I am able to get a better perspective on things but it doesn’t last. I’m back to the same old helpless me when the memories keep rushing back.

A friend of mine suggested journaling. Just wrote one page today when I woke up.