does anyone else find safety really triggering?

ok, so this might sound weird, but i realized im triggered by feeling complete safety. my mother would only stop nagging, when i moved back with her, only then i'd feel physical "safety" (but emotional torment), and when i tried to move away and live independently, i'd get super anxious, cuz i was so codependent on her and she'd convinced me i cant make it on my own and move back with her. i think this was a weird manipulation tactic how to keep me being dependant on her and bribe me with "safety"?!

i am NC and have been living by myself and just get crazy triggered by just being in my own safe place, because my body thinks im probably back with my mother.

anyone else experienced this mindfuck?