Okay. Hello everyone. Let me know if this makes sense. For the longest time I forgot what is love in its truest form. And wether or not I was selfish because I’m an STS being, or to survive

Context: STS means service to self

And TLOO (the law of one) is more of a philosophy for me so idk if it’s true or not but Idc regardless, because I think it’s good philosophy anyways.

Here we go:

I was always selfless starting off as a kid, with some selfish traits as all children are, however, the dialectical material conditions of my extended reality and self also created the surroundings that would challenge my higher state of self, thus propagating a Challenge to see if I could revert back to my normal self, hence, a journey into the underworld where I would have to find my true self once more I believe.

I became selfish for a time to survive. But that was the nature of scarcity. Scarcity creates fear for your life. So Your desire to survive becomes stronger. But the desire to just love yourself and others in a healthy way for no reason at all transcends that fear.

For regardless of scarcity, you stare at fear and respond with its counterpart. You understand fear as an expression of scarcity in its dialectical material conditions. But at the same time, fear was an expression of your will to survive, to feel secure. So realizing this allowed for you to become more compassionate to yourself and others. Understanding others as nothing more than excitations of where you come from. Your true self, the fundamental self which is an omnipresent self, or collective consciousness transcending the illusion of separation.

I was confused about what love is. What it meant for me. Why I loved. Why I did things for myself. How I could love others without forcing myself to. I was afraid if I just started to love it would be fake. Or that if I opened myself up again I would be taken advantage of, made fun of or generally emotionally hurt, thus becoming self centered in a protective way for my own emotions away from the environment.

However the environment is also an excitation of the higher collective self, I had to become neutral again, I had to observe again. It appears that my surroundings are also an expression of of a more extended self. Thus, fighting it is ultimately fighting yourself.

So how do you love yourself in a way that is genuine or not forced? As in, not forcing yourself to love or do good things for a selfish reason, but to love yourself and others in a manner that comes off as natural and not in a virtual signal sense?

It is by understanding the nature of the collective higher self as a part of everything else. To love others is to love not only yourself but the extended collective self as well.

So why love? Because why not. The ultimate nature of love is fundamentally selfless. To love is just to love. In its purest form, love comes with no strings attached and can be expressed in many forms, especially if one is mindful as to why they love. So if that love is unbound by any reason, then that love is pure.

So I know why I want to love. I know why I couldn’t answer my ex when she asked me why I loved her at the time. Not only was I afraid of being alone, I also sought to love for the prime purpose of creating emotional abundance.

So next time, with whatever next partner I obtain, I will not love out of fear of scarcity, but out of the unbound nature of its fundamental existence. Love in its truest form is Unconditional, but varies in its intensity and not bock or white as I once thought it to be.

You may yell at someone still from a place of love. You may be mad at someone still from love. But it’s because you love that you feel these emotions. It is because you care. And it is because you are the collective higher self as your true form.