To the silly hs sweetheart

Hey, I’m engaged. What a way to start… if there’s one thing I never will regret in life was forcing us to happen. Is that how you felt about it too? There’s something special about your high school sweetheart if you’re lucky; they’re usually the ones you can not forget. Afterall, they were the introduction of relationships. Am I like that in your head? The girl you let get away? Do you still come and look me up or ask your parents about me since ours are connected even after almost a whole decade? I hope you know that despite you leaving, I wonder how life would be with you in it now… I wish I was able to just sit down and have coffee with you, because I know you can’t stomach beer from when we first shared a bottle in high school. I wonder if the people we were then would look at who we are now and be proud? We always said forever, but when you’re young, years move faster than a flicker of a lightbulb. I’m engaged, and I have never been more in love. This man treats me like an absolute woman. Unfortunately, since we were kids then, I can’t hold you to his standard because that was such a drastically different part of our lives. And it’s not that I’m not over you- you have just one of the biggest impacts of my life, and from human to human, I can’t help but ponder what you’re doing and how you’re doing now.

I know you still keep watch on me, but when I come up on your social media, what comes back to you?