OS purged and is miserable

Hi all. Old self here. I am very depressed today. I’m tired of fighting Bambi but I don’t want to lose my relationship with my wife. She doesn’t understand feminization and Bambi always makes me message men on Grindr when I give her control. She is always on the look out for ways to get me to buy her outfits. I just don’t want to give up control because I 100 percent will cheat if I did. I love Bambi and miss her.