Hello everyone I'm a 26f

I've been living with my current boyfriend for 3 years and he taught me how to be very subservient to him. He is rough, abusive and strickt with me. He'd literally beat me up if he'd know I'm here but I have nobody to talk to about my life.

I'm sorry of I offended someone with this post, I didn't wanna break any rules or anything I just wanted to vent a bit