My face inverted will be the reason I ever commit suicide

I sometimes look in the mirror and think oh I look acceptable, then I see a photo of myself from the back camera, or use my inverted mirror and then I realise why no guy has ever liked me. It is excruciatingly painful to only look normal/decent in the mirror, but not in real life. It is incredibly saddening and morbid how one flip of a mirror can turn my normal face into a disgusting monster. I do not care about people who say "you are not used to seeing yourself inverted thats why you look weird" no baby! I can guarantee you I look okay in the mirror sometimes amongst my 98% ugly moments, but then I see my inverted version and then realise, I don't look okay at all. I am actually unbelievably ugly inverted. Simply unbelievable. How sad, that there are two completely different worlds, the way I look in the mirror and the way I look in reality.