I am gaslit beyond repair (probably should write a book) + Audio Help Wanted

I am desperate, but I suppose that is what becomes of someone who is so humiliatingly broken down to a shell of their former self, thanks to the lengths a narcissist will travel to feed their singular goal of self-fulfillment.

My desperation lies in the fact that I have hundreds of recordings proving that this man has been cheating on me, right under my nose. Though when presented with my evidence, his gaslights take on a whole new level of dimmability and he convinces me yet again that I must seek help because I am going absolutely crazy. I know I am, but only because I am not and I am not just hearing voices or seeing things. I am going crazy because I know what I know and he is trying ever so hard to tell me otherwise. Making me question everything I think I have ever known about life, love, truth, humanity, the human brain etc…

I need help. Yes! But the help I need comes in the form of forensic audio analysis, which I cannot afford. But first let me answer the question invading the minds of those who are hopefully reading this…

I am not leaving him (just yet) because outside of this fantastic life we live in the nicest neighborhood in our small mountain town, with a killer view and everything we could ever want, I have little to nothing. This relationship has broken me down so much that I haven’t even been able to maintain anything I had prior and being currently jobless due to anxiety, stress and multiple mental breakdowns (yes he is winning), I am without any money. I have stopped talking to most of my family and as much as they love me, aren’t in any position to help out this 40 year old child I have become. So unless you have something helpful to say, please save any negative input for a less sensitive posting. I can’t take any more negativity or block walls to steer me in a worse direction. Thank you.

Now that we got that out of the way… is there anyone out there willing to clean up some audio to prove to my partner and a few other imperative players that I know what is going on so that I can demand far more than a hapless apology. I want him to be so dumbstruck knowing that I now know I haven’t been going crazy this whole time. If any of that makes any sense.

The audio come from a variety of sources, now all mostly stored on my iPhone or my iMac. From various security cams, to Apple Voice Memos as well as a few other recording apps. I will send one or two that could really being the icing I need to lick off the knife I am about to pull out my back. Most all of the audio is him and her (or them) whispering. With a ton of background noise. I have tried so hard to clean it up but I don’t know what I am doing and usually end up making it worse.

But right now I just need a friend, a little assistance and a lot of hope. Thank you in advance! Again, save the negativity for your personal time wasting. I am so fragile right now and just need something to help me.

~Broken Branch in the Pines