Once you've made some progress, do you consistently have an "experience" every time?

I had an absolutely spectacular experience with the tapes.

I saw, I felt, I lost my sense of time. It was just absolutely incredible. When it ended, I was full of love and joy and patience and kindness and felt like a new being. I've been praying so much.

That being said, I haven't done another session since. I went in with no specific expectations. I have experience with mindfulness-oriented meditation, but nothing like this. I went in with curiosity and an open mind without really expecting anything to happen.

It's been a few days, and I'm intimidated to try again. It was so, so wonderful (I filled pages and pages of my journal talking about how human language is so inadequate to describe it), but now that something has happened, I have an expectation. What if it doesn't ever happen again? What if it's more than I can handle? I didn't really believe in this kind of experience before.

I'll work through this and try again soon, I'm sure, but I was curious to ask other practitioners how frequently/consistently they have an "experience" while using the tapes. Thank you!