i (still) love you

and i know you believem. you may say i dont and you may tell peeople i love bringing you down. for someone who is so healthy and aware you sure project the tings you choose to ignore onto me. you dont hate me for those things. you hate you for them. i love you through it all. as the villan i love you as amonster i love you as a pathetic sad loser i love you. i miss you so much. i miss you doing ur makeup all day and making such a fuss over ur outfits, i miss you blabbing about makeup and skincare products even if i dont have intrest in it i love hearing you go on about it, hell i picked some skincare habits cuz of you, Cerave is some good shit and you showed me that. thank you. i want you to want to be my person. i want you in every way. i want us, i want our future together, the children and the house and the traveling and the problems and the worry and love and food fights and laughs. iwant you to yell at me when im an idiot. i want you to wear that outfit i love to see u in. i weant you to fuss over me not having style, i want you to buy my clothes and for you to dress e how you thinkk i look best. i want to be annoyed you never finush drinks and open new ones and leave them everywhere. i want you. i miss us. im sorry.