overthink ka now, panic attack later

tbh 'di naman ako overthinker todamax ganon but like lately i can't help it to the point na magpapanic ako kahit wala pa ko sa situation na naiisip ko pa lang. wasn't diagnosed with anything since 'di privilege enough to get checked, i can't help but worry abt my future. what kind of people i have to meet, school works, teachers, gagastusin, anong course kukunin, expectations, what if 'di ko kayanin, what if bumagsak ulit katawan ko, what if sayang lang ulit efforts ko.

throughout all my years studying 'di masyadong maganda experiences ko (ik too early to say since g12 palang dapat ako). may teachers na pedo, nangt-traumatized to the point na one of my cm commited swrslide, bullying, sabotage sa schoolworks and etc.

i can't help but worry over anything na school related. idk kung oa lang pero grabe kasi e, baka 'di ko ulit kayanin.