I 30M fell in love with a married polyamorous woman 30F. She treats me almost as if I were her boyfriend but lets me know we will never be together. I love making her happy but I know my eventual fate. How do I proceed?

So I feel like I know the answer here. Like for my own good and for my own happiness just break it off, but it’s not that simple. I love her and I don’t want to hurt her. I knew going into this that she struggles maintaining friendships with men because they always want more, and I don’t want to be another one of them. Even though basically I am now…

I should note she flirts with me constantly, calls me cute names, physically flirts, and we always want to be around eachother. So it’s not just one sided.

I truly do gain fulfillment and happiness by interacting with her, being there for her, and making her happy. I don’t want to lose her and if that means just being her “not boyfriend boyfriend” then I feel like that’s the reality and I need to accept that if I want her in my life.

The thing is, I also want someone who genuinely loves me. Someone who actually sees a future with me and someone I can actively work towards that future with.

I’m giving this woman my all. Every ounce of energy, thoughtfulness, and care that I can possibly give is going to her and it’s because it makes her happy. I feel like I’m someone special in her life regardless of the situation but I have no time to find what I truly want elsewhere.

I think I’m in too deep and I’m digging myself into a deeper hole as each day goes by. I’m afraid she will also get bored of me if I can’t keep up the intensity of our relationship and I’m trying my best to maintain that because once again I don’t want to lose her.

Shit is fucked and I feel like I could have seen this coming a mile away but it’s hard when you form a genuine connection with someone.

Any advice on how I should proceed without hurting anyone in the process? I can’t envision a future between us where things end on a positive note.