I have so much anger towards my ex still

He lied about his relationship with this girl and honestly I stayed around so long out of competition! Out of wanting to get the prize and I realized he wasn’t the price but I didn’t want her to win ! It was either I stayed and played like nothing was bothering me or leave and after many times of brake up and makeup I finally left and depression hit so bad and the worst part I had to act as if nothing was bothering me ! On social media , on every app, and it hurt ! He constantly would try to make me feel like an idiot when I found out they were still talking and no matter what I did it was like he already chose to cling to her ! I was so hurt .. till this day I don’t think he knows how badly he hurt me .. like I’m always the strong person so I’m pretty sure he thought I moved on in no time but that was not the case ! I’m still hurt even after almost 2 years it brings tears to my eyes the amount of lying and hurtful shit he was doing ! I pray God put karma on him ! Because heartbreak is so hard ! Can’t nobody tell you how to get over it just tears and time !