[M4F] 31 - Ex abuser turned shut-in porn addict. Looking for women who want to vent frustration and keep me locked away - Teleguard: PLVA4LTAT

I've always been a bit into humiliation, and went looking for it online. But as I spoke to women online about my prior sexual experiences, I realized I'd been not only a creep but actually abusive to women in the past

I really hate that about myself and am sorry I did it, and I never want to do that again, but I don't trust myself with women. If I didn't realize what I was then, how would I even know?

One lady suggested an alternative: Just get irreversibly addicted to porn, shame and humiliation, to the extent that either sex doesn't appeal or I become such a shut-in loser that it's just not accessible to me. That was over 3 years ago now, I've kept doing what she said, I've not touched a woman since, and I even have trouble meeting their eyes in public

I've found that a lot of women are interested in talking to me about this, so I figured I'd offer it more directly in this post. Whether you find all the above funny, or you find me disgusting and want to encourage me to get worse, or you just want to vent your frustration at an abusive loser, or a bit of all three