I don’t know what a crush looks like anymore

So I recently ended things with my husband of ten years. Not on bad terms but it’s hurtful still. He still lives at home and so I go out more just to avoid feeling it. Recently I’ve been hanging out with some old friends and they happen to play on a Sunday league. On their team is a guy that I don’t know that well, but we’ve always said hello to each other out of courtesy I thought.

I couldn’t really tell you what type of guy he is because I don’t know him as well but what I can say is that when he greets me he makes sure we hold eye contact. he always holds a beautiful smile and it does not help that his eyes are a delightful light brown color. The first time I attended one of these games he found me in the bleachers all the way from the field and faced me his whole body. He stared until I looked back at him and we waved at each other.

The next interaction we had he brought it up. He said he had seen me and waved at me at his game like I hadn’t been there. It was kind of like he was excited that I had been there. I found it kind of cute.

I went to probably 3 more games with my friend and he did the same each time. It’s like the cutest most eager wave I’ve seen. And I tried to look in other directions but my friends have tapped me because he stands them and stares until I look right back. Right on the field just staring my way.

One time I dropped something off for him at his place of work and he just stood smiling and staring into my eyes lol I tried to walk past and I had to signal for him to move because I didn’t want to stare back into them.

For context he works at a plaza where there is space for you to sit and eat outside. It’s lit at night and I like to go there with friends. I don’t go inside to greet him because i know he has a girlfriend and I don’t feel like i should even be thinking about anyone. The last two times I’ve gone were also pretty cute interactions.

The first time he say me from the window. I of course pretended not to see him so he came outside so happily and greeted me with a hug. The next time he saw me from the window as well and stood there like he always does. My friend saw him and waved hello, while I was covered by some tree shrub but he did not budge until I peeked my head around the shrub and waved.

Is it a crush ? I mean I know mines is a crush. There’s just so much little moments that don’t really mean anything. But they kind of do.

Also, it’s my opinion that if a man likes you, he’ll let you know by looking for you. And also, Hispanic men are so flirty, this could really just be a friendship and I’m blinded by my own crush on him ?