My (20f) parents are trying to talk me out of going on a trip. What do I do?

This is gonna be a bit rambly because I’m so confused so bear with me please. Also on throwaway.

I have the opportunity to go on a trip to another country to visit my family, I am not paying for this trip. Originally I was supposed to go with my mom (50f) but things between her and my dad went very sideways and part of her making things “right” with him was giving up this trip. I rebooked it on my own with the help of an uncle.

I’m gonna put these next details in bullet points because it will take me ages to type, I can clarify any needed info in the comments.

• My parents have had ongoing issues for years, which has resulted in my mother being kicked out at least ten times. According to my dad my mum is a manipulator, a bad parent etc

• My parents and my boyfriend have virtually no relationship now as during the last fight things were said about my boyfriend that were incredibly rude, my boyfriend was informed of what was said about him and he has chosen to go low contact with them which I respect. There have been times we were close to where they were and we did not stop by, my parents claim this is hurtful and I feel I was trying to respect my partners feelings, especially after they dragged him into their issues and never apologized or made amends.

• One of the catalyst events for these issues was my mother taking a free trip she was offered through work despite my dad begging her to stay and leaving the care of me to him during a busy time for his work. In her making amends for that she promised she’d never get on a plane again, her originally booking this trip for her and I contradicts that and she claims she manipulated my dad to be okay with it, despite it being her family we would be seeing.

• My parents issues have resulted in me moving out, not only because I can’t deal with the up and downs of their relationship but I was fed up of being treated like I’m younger than I am, not trusted to do things and generally not being able to do things my peers were and are doing. I was also told multiple times to stay away from home during my exam period which didn’t help my studies. I left to try and protect my mental health

• My parents claim I’m hurting them because I moved out and because I respect my boyfriends choice not to see them. They say that me coming back would be best for me and everyone. My mother is also convinced she is a bad parent to me and that we can’t be close, so I don’t see how that works.

• As some added perspective for my family life, they are forcing me to move home for school otherwise I will no longer receive financial support from them and would loose my education fund

They say i should not go on this trip, that it is too similar to the catalyst event for their problems and that if i go they’re “done” which im not sure what that means but im worried they’ll disown me. They say they are very scared about me going. I am very conflicted, I dont want to hurt them, but i also dont want to miss out, but im also worried im not prepared to do such a big trip as a completely new traveller and meeting people who are family but I barely know and that their words will take over my mind and I will not enjoy this trip.

TLDR: My parents think i shouldn’t take this trip and are scared to death about me going, I am conflicted because of all the history between all of us.