I can't stop thinking sex is missing something with a condom

I have a massive obsession with breeding and lately it is only getting worse. My girlfriend hates my breeding kink and insists on a condom. I respect this and try to repress my urges but it isn't working. Lately I am growing more and more obsessed with breeding and can't help thinking I am wasting my bwc in a condom. Is it wrong to think something is missing from sex without the intimacy of breeding. I don't know if I am right or just an idiot but breeding is so hot.