Worried that thoughts won’t let me enjoy my summer

I’ve had bad intrusive thoughts for as long as I can remember, with some pretty major OCD spikes. Now, in just a few days I have family members that are like my FAVOURITE people that are coming from Australia, but I’ve also been feeling bad about my weight recently.

I get those annoying thoughts like “you can’t ever do this, not until this and this” And “you can only have this if you do this” “if you don’t do this, this will/ won’t happen”

I feel uncomfortable in summer clothing and worry I can’t enjoy myself with them here, at least that’s what my brain doesn’t ever shut up about, I just want them to go so I can enjoy this month!