Couldn't fuck him today, going to sleep now

Before Last night UPDATE: Touched my Nephew again in sleep.

Me 26F , him 20

So day before yesterday him and my sister ( his mom) came to stay with us for a week and they arrived around late night and we were talking and having dinner before going to sleep . My nephew was on call with someone in balcony and I told him that we'll watch movies if he's okay and not tired he agreed. My sister was tired so she went to sleep and I locked her room from outside and me and him were watching movies in the living room in the couch. He was also tired and we were just talking about his college life and friends, he later dozed off and I took this as the best moment to cuddle with him so I just put my head on his shoulder and he kinda hugged me . He just lied down on the couch after sometime and I was also lying beside him and put my leg on his crotch and started moving it slowly, I could feel his dick growing in size , he just pulled me closer to him and I just put my hand on his dick from outside to feel it , and shockingly it was hard so hard . I couldn't resist and just put my hand inside the pants and slowly caressing it .He kinda hugged me even more just the touch of him made my pussy dripping wet .I STARTED GRABBING HIS BALLS AND HE WAS RESTLESS AND STILL PRETENDING TO SLEEP , I MURMURED " BABY PLEASE AAJ KE LIYE " HE WAS HARD LIKE A ROCK , I had to control myself because my sister was in next room and the tv was on , And we slept like that for sometime I later went to my sister's room to sleep because it could have been dangerous.

Previous confession

Yes I am addicted to porn and I feel bad but that's the only way to satisfy myself My background story : How it started - I was a simple single mom nothing wild but it all started when I discovered Milf Porn and Reddit Mom/Aunt videos. I just completely got hooked on.I got addicted and started imagining myself as the milf the guys used to fuck on the videos. it was such a turn on.

MY NEPHEW - I've known him since he was born , I've always loved him like a mom and wanted best for him. He's tall and started working out which made his body so attractive and I started having feelings for him.

MY ENCOUNTER WITH HIM- he used to stay with me in holidays in year 2022 December ( only two of us ) it all started with innocence we used to watch movies and sports late night, I started developing feelings for him. He used to sleep on the sofa in living room but I invited him to sleep together because it was very cold and we only had one room heater. First night we slept normally and separately. Next night I could control myself and just hugged him he was fine with it.And it continued every night I slowly started touching him and grabbed his dick and pretended I was sleeping and he did the same. I let his hand on my ass and boobs, I've also pushed his face on my boobs all this while pretending to be in deep sleep , The most extreme thing I've done was kissed his dick when he was sleeping and just licked the tip of his dick and it was so hot ( I was literally dripping that night ) Every night I pretended I was in deep sleep and in morning it was just normal he also acted he never said anything. I have put his hands on my panties when we were sleeping for the last night last December 2023 . I want him badly but I don't know how can I get him It's very scary