I have a psychological problem, obsession with my penis

I never had a problem with my size I'm pretty good at sex, but the problem is I'm to obsessed with my penis since I was a kid becose of porn, try to make it bigger in different ways with works with time and I don't think I will ever stop it helps me feel better. E I will never take a girl that I know had someone with a bigger one because it's going to constantly be on my mind and not go away I would fill like shit and I would stop talking to that her, friends ok but not more It's so important to me that everytime I start talking to a girl that's the only thing I think about, if I'm the biggest, and I always was pretty lucky I guess I just realize this is mental problem I don't think it will ever go away and it makes sense to me to continue making my penis bigger because it works and already made me feel better I just need this reassurance that I'm the biggest the girl ever had otherwise I wold not see the point of being more than friends, I'm loving and I tend to give all of my to the person I find to be mine and if that's what makes me feel better (my penis) I think I have the right to be happy

Even when it hurts the girls stretching them and poking the cervix it's like I am what child me wanted to be, loved and the best for that person

English isn't my first language