I don't know how to talk about it anymore.

I've tried not bringing it up for a while and stopping initiating altogether.

I'll sometimes get a "maybe this weekend we could..." but then the pressure is all on me. I have no way of knowing if/when she is in the mood.

Any subtle sexual or flirty comments get brushed off.

We have so many plans coming up towards the end of the year and I feel it's making me delay the final straw.

Am I right to delay this more? Since I've stopped trying I feel she's noticed me building up a wall.

We did have some hot sex a couple of weeks ago but it was after a heavy night of drinking and tbh I'd jumped through a million hoops just to get there. I mean, the sex was unbelievable but I felt sad the next day knowing it was the last time for a while.

Before we did it that night she said "I think we should shag (we're Scottish btw haha) all day tomorrow" and I was like "yeah maybe, if you want to" and she got a bit emotional and that's when we did it?

[Context - m29 // f27 // no kids // both work & pay bills // no birth control // generally stress free but both have mild anxiety // quality time together, dates ect. // have own interests.]