pure ocd

i cant stop feeling like my whole life is ruined and that i will not have a future and that if i do become famous or popular i will eventually get cancelled, i also am worried that i might harm others again in the future, there is a post i made with more details that may be too much for this subreddit, so if you think it may trigger your ocd dont read it, however i'd be really appreciative if you read it and are 18 or above, no one said anything in response to the post yet (its the post right before this one), and just the fear and worry has been eating me from the inside