Most of my dysphoria went away but like i still dont want to live my life as a male? i am confused

I always felt some sort of dysphoria since i was in primary school not directly hating my gender but feeling disconnected from my body but i just went crazy when i found out what dysphoria was and i became absolutely paranoid

but like i finally got a hairdresser that agreed to actually give me the femenine haircut i wanted for some reason my parents didnt mind it and i remember after getting it ans convincing my parents to let me shave my legs most of my dysphoria instantly went away

i have always been a rather girly looking boy but i still wished i looked completely female even if currently i dont feel as much resentment to my body but i still get panicked when my facial hair grows back i am just lucky i dont get any shadows but the idea of getting older and more masculine sounds straight up like body horror to me