Any good psychologist you can prefer around BCD?

My su*cidal thoughts are haunting me again. Life’s been really tough recently. I dnt know if relapse, stress, anxiety or my severe depression. Looking for tane ang nami nga psych? Willing to listen gd, wla ga pang bara or denial. Indi ka ma ilang mg open up. Everytime ma dumduman ko gn png hmbal ka ex gf ko nga “mango”, “bwesit”, “sakit sa ulo ko” can’t sleep, ended our 5 year relationship, abt 3 month ago, I can’t sleep maybe 2-3hrs lng, plus pressure pa sa work. Life’s definitely sad and tough. Sorry all, just asking and sharing. Thank you gd.