Misery will never end

‎‏I graduated from college, while i was studying I have an idea (distraction) that i would be successful and brilliant then I will make up for what I went through

‎‏Diving in my books was a shelter for me from loneliness and anxiety

‎‏However I realize after graduation that I’m not special, I’m not just ugly anxious also big delusional loser

finally I graduate but my life doesn’t change, my look is the same, people still ignoring me, and my social skills are sucks because of the abuse I’ve been subjected to

My grades used to give me value now i feel like nothing