Used to take dexedrine and want to take it again

Hey there, I have a dilemma and don’t know where to ask/talk about it, so I am trying here! Feel free to let me know if I should go elsewhere.

Here is my dilemma:

I am a polyamorous guy who participates in a lot of orgies/marathon sex events with multiple partners, and I used to be prescribed dexedrine for adhd.

I ended up asking my psychiatrist to go off of it because I was too anxious, but in reflection, I think I was too anxious because of work stress at a new job and going through divorce.

The problem is that now that I’m not on dexedrine, my sex performance is a lot worse and I am disappointing both my partners and myself by performing a lot less than I used to, and it’s really bringing me down.

I want to have dexedrine again just for the sexual benefit, not necessarily for anything else, but I’m almost certain my dr won’t prescribe it for that, so I don’t really want to ask them for it, for that purpose.

What should I do!?