Working full time and being the only caregiver… I’m so depressed and exhausted it hurts

With my horrible commute (thanks LA public transit!) I’m at work or going to/from work from 7am to 7pm. So that’s 12 hours a day where I can’t get any work or errands done, since I’m working in-office the whole time. I also don’t care about the job or find it rewarding. It’s a basic reception job that anyone could do.

My husband can’t clean or cook right now so I have to do everything at home - trash, dishes, laundry, dog walks, etc. One of our dogs is very reactive so every walk is a crapshoot on how stressful it’s going to be.

I wake up, prep his meds, walk dogs, go to work, work for 9 hours (including an unpaid lunch), ride the bus home, walk 20 minutes home from the bus stop, walk the dogs again, cook dinner, do all the household chores, walk the dogs again, and then go to bed. I barely have time or energy to shower.

I’m so tired it physically hurts. Every morning I wake up and I’m disappointed. None of my previous hobbies bring me joy any more. I just feel like I’m sleepwalking from one chore to the next.

I cry in the work bathroom multiple times a day but my coworkers don’t seem to notice or care that I’m struggling. They’ve all started going out to lunch together but they never invited me or asked me. I feel like no one notices or cares about me.

I get no joy out of anything in my life any more and every day hurts more than the last. I can’t do this any longer.