Can anyone else relate?

Bro I feel this 🤏🏼 close to reaching the "unable to dress or bathe self" phase. I keep wanting to have a bipolar manic pop hit me but I haven't had one in a while now. All I want to do is sleep so I can stop thinking of only the things in my life that suck because that’s what little I seem to be able to focus on these days. I just feel so lost, alone, and hopeless at this point.