Torn

Not really seeking advice, but it’s welcomed. I just wanted to vent bcuz I don’t have anyone to truly talk to. Yes I’m seeking therapy at the moment.

I (37 F) am torn on how I feel about divorcing my husband (38 M). I haven’t been happy for quite sometime and was beginning to be content with not feeling fulfilled in my marriage. That all changed with a phone call from my high school sweetheart on my birthday. I instantly felt alive again after a simple conversation. I even got the courage to want to leave my marriage. I’m torn because if I would have never gotten this disruption from him, would I have genuinely had the nerve to leave.