i think my friend hatez me

i actually dont know what to do
ive always struggled to make friendz cuz of mental issuez and me being tranz (ftm)
but i recently made a pretty decent group of friendz at the beginning of this skewl year
but now suddenly itz all falling apart
two of my friendz had a whole cheating accusation thing so i honestly dont know how to feel about it so ive been distancing from them a bit my other friend is mostly only friendz with my best friend
this iz mostly about my best friend so ill js call him K for the sake of this post
but basically weve been best friendz 4 like 3 yearz now
and we tell each other almost everything
but suddenly hez gotten closer with other people and hasnt been telling me anything going on in his life
earlier i messaged him and wuz rly upset but he never answered me
and i know hez been online cuz he messaged in one of the groupchatz
i feel like ive been relaced and honestly i have no clue wut ill do if he stopz being friendz with me
as unhealthy as it is, i rely on him completely
my view on the future is based around him, hez pretty much the only one i trust enough to vent to and receive comfort from, hez the main person i talk to, and hez my reason 4 living
but suddenly it feelz like he doesnt wanna talk 2 me
this iz js really stressful and overwhelming 4 me and idk wut 2 do anymore cuz i know i cant make anymore friendz
and im so close 2 relapsing again cuz of it since i honestly cant handle this on top of everything else im dealing with