I'm going to be honest, most of my attempts with relationships involve me pouring my heart out, everything goes well for the first day, then the next day I come back to "last seen a long time ago" and a blank pfp. This may be a vent post so I apologize if it isn't your thing. IF YOU WISH TO GET TO THE NON VENT, LOOK FOR THE SUB POST.  

I just want to find someone to give my heart to. I want to feel something again, look forward to hearing a message from someone, waking up to a good morning text. I don't know. I just.. I want to find more people to be friends with, and possibly grow into something more. I know I don't have the best track record, but I do want to keep trying. 

Every day is a struggle, and this past month has been very... difficult. It's been hard to find reasons to be happy. Music is bland and has no feeling. Games have no sense of relief or fun anymore. And I can't focus enough to read. I'm even noticing my attention span shortening, zoning out, unable to hear anything clearly. I feel as though I am immensely.. sad. I have had depression for quite a long time and I get overwhelmingly lonely. And most days now it's.. difficult to see the light. 

I don't expect someone to take that away, I just hope to find someone to help ease the pain and help guide me on the right path, someone who is okay with my inability to write or think often, someone who sticks through it all.. and this isn't even taking into account my work. 

Anyways.. sorry. Here's the real post. 

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Hey there, my name is Jamie. It's a pleasure to meet you. I am looking for friends and more people to talk to/roleplay with. I am alright with either, and I can explain in depth more. 

Roleplay wise, I am a switch, I could roleplay male or female, or my trans ref. I am alright with anything, though I long for more longer term roleplay. I DO LIKE CASUAL QUICK FUCKS THOUGH. I want to be clear, if a fuck buddy is what you want then I wouldn't mind that either. I just want to lose myself in something. 

Friends wise, I am hoping to play more games with people, or just have more people to talk to. Some games I play are Destiny, Warframe, FFXIV, Halo, Overwatch, and plenty more. I can talk about lore from certain games all day and night. Some topics are fnaf, halo, mass effect, and pretty much any game I really enjoy. You'll have to get to know me better in order to know my nonstop talkable topics!

As for what I am, I am.. I consider myself trans/genderfluid, I suppose. I lean male, but I definitely have feminine urges as well. I just.. it's complicated and I want to meet people who are accepting and understanding. 

I'm not sure what else to add, as I'll grow this post the more times I make it. Please PLEASE have a furry/anime pfp.  And I do not talk on reddit, I don't like to be on here for longer than I have to.. 

Hope to see you soon, love you all. 

Discord: loneliestpaladin

Telegram: loneliestpaladin

[25] [M4A] [Telegram] [loneliestpaladin] Hey.. just.. looking to make friends and find love, I guess