I hate that I have a huge dick

I’m a virgin and will be till I die cause I don’t have premarital sex . I’m 19 and I hate that I’m gonna die without ever fucking anyone nor will anyone ever enjoy my body I’m not saying this to brag but I actually have abs and a big cock and I’m never gonna use it even if I do get married my wife isn’t going to know it’s considered big because she is going to be a virgin. Btw does anyone know if having a bigger penis means I could get ED easier?