anyone else?

is anyone else unable to enjoy things and/or say you're excited for something because you're scared that you'll jinx it by saying it or even just thinking it? I do it even during the activity that I'm excited for, like I won't let myself be 100% happy about it and "in the moment" because I'm scared if I do I'll end up sabotaging it/ruining it and it will end. so I have to wait until it ended to say that I loved it and that I couldn't wait for it to happen etc, but I always end up enjoying it like 50% of how I would have otherwise because I'm too occupied being scared of it going bad because I jinxed it. i hate it so much I can barely enjoy things