thoughts while honoring eh

after lunch, i went to the bakery and got some bread to have for the morning. i got a pork floss bread, a chocolate pineapple bun, and a cream cheese filled bun. i decided to have a small bite of the cream cheese one because i wanted something sweet. however it wasn't what i expected and i didn't like it that much. so, i cut half of the chocolate pineapple bun to have some, only to find out it barely had any chocolate. i just really wanted bread so i finished it. but then i still wanted something kind of sweet, so i ate some of the pork floss bread which is sweet and salty. i was only going to have a little, but it was really good so i ate the whole thing. right now, i feel satisfied and full, but i can't stop feeling like i "wasted" calories for eating some of the chocolate pineapple bun and cream cheese bun. idk... if i had known i was going to end up eating the whole pork floss bread i wouldn't have eaten those. also i just had lunch like an 40 minutes ago!

ive already been in recovery for a month and the eh is still presistent, maybe even stronger. as i gain weight, it feels harder to honor my eh. does it really get better?