I relapsed & feel bad because I didnt drink the entire bottle.

I got sober from alcohol about a month ago and went from drinking daily to only maybe once every 2 weeks with friends and on special occasions.

I really had the urge to drink tonight and I started feeling a bit sick after only maybe 4 shots (I'm not too sure, i just downed a bit straight from the bottle). I didn't even feel tipsy, just straight up sick. I have no idea why but i suddenly really didn't want to drink anymore, which felt weird because a month ago i would have done everything for it. I dont know, a part of me feels guilty for a lower tolerance and the fact that I don't even wanna drink anymore.

It makes me feel like I wasnt even an alcoholic in the first place. Like, i want the feeling of being drunk, but I'm starting to feel sick from the smallest amounts of alcohol or I don't want to actually drink it. I'm starting to prefer sitting the cravings out until they go away instead of acting on them. It makes me feel guilty and I don't know why.