Mom (67) diagnosed today with FTD

So...yeah. Looks like we're joining the club you never get to leave. Her anxiety has been worsening for a couple of years now, with the language area of her brain being by far the most affected according to her neurologist. I haven't sat in on appointments yet (my dad has), but from what I'm reading it sounds very much like PPA and very little like bvFTD, which I guess I should be thankful for?

I've always had a complex and somewhat difficult relationship with her, though I believe her to be a good person who struggled a lot with mental illness and being an isolated SAHM when I was a child. As a SAHM now myself, I empathize even if I personally parent and behave differently from her. I have suffered an immense personal loss in the last few years and she was not overly available to support me, and now I wonder if that was entirely her "fault" which leaves me feeling guilty for that resentment. We all live in a quasi-rural part of Ontario so initially her symptoms were handwaved off as "COVID vaccine, it's happening to everyone". Obviously, it was not.

Sorry if this is a vent rather than a coherent question, but I feel like maybe you all can understand. She has had a hoarding disorder forany years so I am mourning the loss of time she spent not having my young children to their home, all that stuff that was sooooo important to keep. And now the clock is ticking.