32F attractive, successful, autistic, history of sexual trauma, no family support

I do copious amounts of yoga and meditation so I consider myself pretty well in terms of physical and mental fitness. Since last June when I was violently raped by someone I was seeing I've become touch-averse and aromantic/asexual (could also be a symptoms of all the meditation I've been doing). Yesterday I ugly cried for the first time in a long time because I recognised I don't deserve to be alone forever, but I scare men away because of how scared I am of them I suppose. I don't fit in anywhere. Would love to hear some success stories if anyone is willing to share, or some words of encouragement. Love and light to you all