Welcomed our son on Sunday November 3rd. 

I had an induction scheduled due to being on both fasting and meal time insulin. Went in to start the cervical ripening and at 24 hours I was still only about 1 cm. They removed it and placed a new one in. While being monitored they noticed the babies heart rate was dipping during contractions. The doctor admitted me, removed the cervadil and placed in the balloon catheter and started pitocin. The babies heart rate continued to drop during contractions with the catheter and pitocin so the doctor made the call to send me for an emergency c section.

He was stunned when he came out, had some fluid in his lungs and was not breathing. The doctors quickly worked away on him and needed to give him a cpap to help him breathe. Once he was breathing They brought him over to me for 2 seconds so I could see him before they rushed him off to the nicu. I didn’t get to see or hold my baby for 6 hours after giving birth to him and found out that his blood sugar dropped and needed to be put on an iv. 

After 3 days in the nicu he was discharged and we are home and healing. I have so much mom guilt that I failed him. I’m angry with my doctor for inducing me so early when all ultrasounds and stress tests were coming back good, He only weighed 6 pounds 5 ounces at birth. I’m terrified of having another pregnancy and going through all of this all over again. 

Graduated 38 weeks