Need opinion on curiosity

I’m bi curious when I’m cross dressed, but also feel kind of scared. I want to know how does it feels like getting fucked by someone. Can someone share their thoughts or experiences?

I cross dress in mom’s saree and salwar suit whenever I’m completely home alone. At times I do take pics. Posted couple of them on my reddit.

When I’m cross dressed I do feel like exploring with a guy and see how it feels like to be someone GF/Wife/bitch and being used. But this feeling is only there when I’m cross dressed. So kind of confused whether this cross dressing is just a fetish or something more of a sexuality. Whether I’m bi or straight with a cross dressing fetish.

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I cross dress in mom’s saree and salwar suit whenever I’m completely home alone. At times I do take pics. Posted couple of them on my reddit.

When I’m cross dressed I do feel like exploring with a guy and see how it feels like to be someone GF/Wife/bitch and being used. But this feeling is only there when I’m cross dressed. So kind of confused whether this cross dressing is just a fetish or something more of a sexuality. Whether I’m bi or straight with a cross dressing fetish.