Highest high & Lowest Low

Imma try to make this a daily contribution to my new self expressing positive habit id like to form over a meth addiction. My HH & LL

My HH Today; It was actually in the same moment that my LL was a thing too

Saw my brother for the first time in a few weeks and he was mad at me so I went and asked why. He was standing leaning in his tent and looked pissed off but I didn't care. Thats my baby brother. He isnt allowed to not love me when I need him to.

He told me why. And I did owe him and my mother an apology.

I just drop every wall ive built up my entire life and said, " I know... I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to be so mean"

He walked over me to me and said, "thanks for watering my blueberry bush". And wrapped his arms around my entire head and pulled me in that embrace ive grown with his whole life.

For 5 seconds I completely let go of every guarded shielded damaged pain ive ever held onto. Including the newest blow I just got to the gut.

The only person in the world that has ever made me feel so many things. My rock. My best friend. My PIC.

My hero. My bubba. My baby brother.

He did exactly what my soul needed today. And I wish so badly that he could be sharing my progress and success in life right now.

Crying about something more painful than I can handle and making up with your best friend you tell everything to all in the same moment. Knowing that as much as j miss them. And my babies. Knowing I dont do well once comfortable. Knowing I'm making the move to what some call a better life.... Knowing I have to walk away from what once was. And what now is... And start preparing for changes and the actions to change are things I'm not prepared to change. I will be. One day at a time.